Continuing her confessional narrative to the gentle bachelor Seligman, the older Joe recounts the darker, more destructive phase of her sexual addiction. Having lost her capacity to feel physical pleasure or emotional attachment in the first volume, Joe embarks on a desperate quest to reclaim her lost sensation and cure her inner emptiness.Driven by an insatiable and increasingly dangerous compulsion, Joe subjects herself to extreme scenarios. She enters a harsh, specialized dominatrix dungeon run by a sadistic mentor named K, seeking pain as a substitute for pleasure. However, this experiment pushes her body and psyche to the absolute breaking point, failing to provide the emotional redemption she secretly craves.Her life takes a temporary, deceptive turn toward domesticity when she meets Jerome, the young man whose advances she had previously rejected. To her astonishment, Joe discovers she can still experience orgasm through him, leading to a tumultuous
relationship and the birth of a child. Desperate to feel normal, Joe attempts to embrace traditional motherhood. Yet, her maternal instincts collide violently with her addiction. Consumed by her compulsion, she abandons her family, utterly convinced that her nature is fundamentally corrupt and irredeemable.In her final desperate attempt to cure herself, Joe visits a shady, underground doctor who performs a crude medical procedure intended to destroy her libido permanently. Instead, the surgery leaves her entirely numb, permanently robbing her of sex entirely. She hits rock bottom, existing in a state of profound alienation, crime, and spiritual desolation, which ultimately leads to the bruised and battered state in which Seligman found her in the alley.Throughout the storytelling, Seligman listens with unwavering empathy, offering intellectual and philosophical interpretations of Joe’s experiences, drawing parallels to fly-fishing, mathematics, and religious iconography. Joe, however, fiercely rejects his romanticized views, insisting that her life is defined by guilt and inherent evil rather than beauty.The narrative reaches its cynical climax
the following morning. After listening to the harrowing depths of Joe’s life story, Seligman experiences a sudden, jarring shift. Moved not by moral judgment, but rather tempted by the vulnerable woman before him, he attempts to force himself upon her. Calmly and instinctively, Joe pulls a gun from her coat and shoots him dead. She steps out into the cold morning air, her worldview entirely vindicated—humanity is hopelessly selfish, and she remains unchangeably, tragically herself.